A Year That Changed My Life, 2013 At a Glance

Pain, surgery, birth, love, reunited, happiness, SURPRISE, shock, fear, excitement, bad news, sorrow, pain, death, hope, love, 2013.

2013 was a very emotional year for me and my family. The words above only begin to touch on the array of feelings I went through this past year. From the birth of my son, to finding out I'm pregnant again just 5 short months later, to the death of my mother-in-law, 2013 truly has had its ups and downs for me! I'm sure there are a lot of people in similar situations as mine. If that is you, then I hope you can find some kind of peace and happiness in 2014! I have written a timeline for the year, and would like to share my 2013 at a glance with you.

On this day God blessed me with a precious son. I never knew what true love really was until my eyes met his in the delivery room. He was born healthy and happy, and for that I was truly thankful. I was so excited to have my first son, I never imagined what a joy it would be. He is the light of our life, and the sparkle in our eyes.

I love him more than words could say. In January of 2013 he joined our family, and now I couldn't imagine life without him. He has always been a great and happy baby, and has had a great temperament. The beginning of my year was truly a wonderful one, welcoming my first child into my life. It was such an exciting time and a wonderful way to start the year off.

photo credits (text added to roller coaster picture) Teemu008

roller coaster intro picture: Photo credit: Care_SMC

A message reunited me with my high school sweetheart

I was reunited with my high school sweetheart after being apart for nearly 8 years! Truthfully, I had always missed him and never stopped loving him. I always though about his well being, his family, and wondered if he ever thought about me too.

Last year on Valentines Day, a sweet simple message lead into a wonderful reunification with my true love. I found out that he too, had been missing and thinking of me.

He is such an amazing person, unlike any other. He took my son in as his own, and has been an amazing father to him, for which I could not be more thankful for. I couldn't be happier with my new family!

Here is a picture of us back in high school. t seems like just yesterday, but nearly 10 years have passed! I am so happy that we found each other again, and I'm looking forward to our future together. This was definitely another highlight of my year!

I'm Pregnant- back to back pregnancy

I never planned on getting pregnant when Jr. was 5 months old, but despite being on birth control, late June a bold positive told me It was round 2 with this baby-maker!

I was so scared when I found out, because I felt unready and I definitely didn't expect to have a back to back pregnancy. I didn't think I could handle raising two babies at the same time. I was afraid that having another child was going to take away from my current child.

But these are common concerns and worries, and after a while the excitement set in and I was looking forward to having two babies close in age that could grow and play with each other!

My mom shared with me some thoughts that really helped me to see that I had nothing to be afraid of. She told me I'm an excellent mother, and that if anyone can manage two babies back to back, it would be me. She reminded me that I had plenty of resources, a big enough home, enough money, enough love, enough time.

She pointed out that I had a break in between, the whole pregnancy! Some mothers have twins, triplets, heck even people nowadays have octuplets! So really my worries of two back to back babies, were only a drop in the bucket! I really respect and appreciate my mother for always helping me find the positive things in life, when I am feeling discouraged.

So now I thoroughly look forward to having my second baby. I know that it will give my son a nice playmate, and our family has plenty of love to go around!

I found out I am going to be outnumbered, because I am having another BOY! Two little boys, a blessing no doubt!

As you can imagine everyone was very excited to find out we were having another baby. Especially Eddie's mom, Mary! She was very happy for us, and I'm sure she was looking forward to all the grandmotherly things!

Unfortunately Mary got sick around August 2013, and we all thought she had bronchitis. However, after awhile she got worse and they decided to look further into what was causing her ailments.

Nobody expected for her to be diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer! It was the most sad, terrible, heartbreaking thing. Eddie was very close to his mother, and I felt so helpless in what to say or do. I just prayed.

Yet despite lots of prayers, and a whole lot of hope, Mary did not make it and passed away only a couple months after being diagnosed. I still hurt every time I think about her, and the grandsons she will not be able to be there for. I know she'll be watching over us, but I would give anything for her to be around again!

This song is dedicated to Mary, my future mother-in-law, who passed away in 2013. I think this is a great song to remember our lost loved ones and I hope you all enjoy it!

In closing

This year has obviously been a very emotional year for our family. We've had very many blessings though, so I look back on 2013 with many different feelings. There is no greater excitement than having a child, finding your way back to true love, and finding out your expecting another special baby.

Then you think about the ones you have lost, my mother-in-law for example. It saddens me to no end that she will not be apart of our life anymore, or our childrens. I know my fiance was extremely close to his mom, and I hurt for the pain he is feeling.

No matter what though, when we look at our son's smile we find happiness again! We are moving forward into 2014, knowing that we have a guardian angel up in heaven to watch over our boys, and we are making the best of our lives that we can. I am so excited to welcome a new son into the world this year, and I look forward to the many adventures life is going to take us on!

I would just like to stay off the roller coasters for a while, and try and enjoy the beautiful scenery!